Behavior-Will Conflict | A Course in Miracles Deep Dive @ Lake Whatcom, WA | December 31, 2025

Behavior-Will Conflict | A Course in Miracles Deep Dive @ Lake Whatcom, WA | December 31, 2025

Many seekers confuse spiritual growth with adopting a new set of beliefs or behaviors, but this conversation reframes the journey as mind training—learning to recognize and follow true guidance. Drawing on A Course in Miracles, the central thread is behavior–will conflict: those moments when you act from guidance yet feel inner strain, guilt, or resistance.

Your true will is always aligned with peace, clarity, and joining. Discomfort arises not from misalignment, but from identifying with ego preferences.

The insight is subtle and liberating. The strain we feel does not signal failure or wrongdoing; it points to a moment of misrecognition. Comfort seeking, image management, and control masquerade as self-interest, while quietly opposing the peace we actually want. When this conflict is noticed without judgment, it dissolves in what the Course calls the holy instant—a pause where recognition corrects perception without effort.

A striking portion of the talk examines a once-clinical term—mental retardation—as a defense mechanism, carefully framed in its historical context. The teaching extracted is precise: defenses are neutral. They either serve truth or illusion depending on how they are used.

Feeling sorry for others or ourselves strengthens separation. Seeing innocence restores gentleness and reveals our shared need for love.

This shift transforms how we respond to attack. Rather than retaliating or internalizing guilt, we learn to meet every disturbance as a call for love. By refusing to adopt the ego’s voice as our own, we remain soft, attentive, and clear. The payoff is immediate: resistance no longer means misalignment, and discomfort is recognized as a cue to look again—not a moral indictment.

From here, the episode reaches its core insight: even when you are acting according to your true will, you may not recognize it if your perception is clouded by ego wishes. The practical instruction is disarmingly simple—keep listening. Right action is never planned in advance; it emerges naturally from present guidance.

Fantasies of a “perfect life” are obstacles to peace because they occupy attention with imagined conditions.

By labeling such fantasies as unhelpful and letting them pass, attention is freed to receive what is actually needed now. Daily practice becomes gentle and steady: study periods, relaxed focus, and willingness to let earlier lessons mature until understanding stabilizes. Attention itself becomes the doorway to sane perception.

The narrative crown of the episode is Cameo 14, “The Chain of Miscreation”. A series of small, unexamined choices—reactive judgments, unnoticed strain, and compensatory “atonements”—cascade into wasted time and unnecessary difficulty. In a simple cab scenario, ignoring a small nudge toward kindness disrupts flow, while attempting to compensate without guidance compounds delay and irritation.

Countering error with error magnifies fear. Asking for guidance collapses time.

Even mild irritation at a stranger becomes an opportunity to build trust and extend a miracle. Through quiet mind watching—catching subtle fear-producing attitudes early—the cascade is interrupted and ease returns.

The episode closes with a call to study as cooperation. The Course is cumulative; revisiting earlier notes consolidates meaning and prevents later teachings from being misused as moral pressure. The aim is not improved behavior, but corrected perception.

When peace is recognized as our natural motivation, behavior reorganizes around truth without strain.

The practice is humble and immediate: notice discomfort, decline the ego’s offer, and allow the mind to rest in benevolence. From that stillness, right action flows effortlessly—like water. This is how time collapses, innocence is revealed, and the quiet joy of being led is remembered.

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